i watched this movie where the world was crumbling apart only to realize i was staring into a mirror high on some nure-psychotic drugs. I laughed not really caring and unafflicted by emotions seeing as i had none. So i walked over and sat on my bed - i felt like sponge bob. I listened to some live trance as i came down. Anxiety set in as i started feeling my emotions come back and the hard cold fact started to sink in. I may not see my family and friends again for years. So many thoughts and feelings. Suicide would be nice, but i couldn't do that seeing as i have a child on the way. I started thinking about my friend who was hurt real bad in a car accident. Thinking which situation i'd rather be in or been through. Some how that perspective made me feel as tho maybe this isn't the worse thing in life. I find strength through my friends and family, i hope i will be able to see you all again soon. If not maybe i will catch you in a dream somewhere far away from this reality. Oh look at the time! Time for another majic pill, i'll be waiting - see you there!